Friendly competition

I was ten years old when I went to this poetry reciting contest at the encouragement of my schoolteacher, where I was awarded the fourth place.  I cried all the way home: no-one could convince me that it wasn’t a failure.

Ever since, I had a certain aversion to competitions. I did take part in a few, mostly in academic ones (the national contest for high school students and the like), was successful in some of them and less so in others. I avoided non-academc ones for fear of failing again.

I was 18 when I signed up to a dance contest as a soloist. I played finger cymbals (ever heard about the “Let’s Screw Ourselves” Movement?),  I had a costume malfunction, and a jury who was not inclined to appreciate my style, to put it nicely.

It took me more than ten years to go to a dance contest again. Since last summer, I went to five different contests, the last one being at the  Cairo by Night festival last weekend. And finally, I learnt how to compete. Of course, I’ve always known, in a rational way,  that a contest is a means to learn, an opportunity to meet fellow dancers, a chance to get feedback from the masters and from the members of the audience – dancers and non-dancers alike. That it is a way to expose myself and be seen, with all the advantages and challenges of being seen. But now, finally, I internalised it. Finally, I can truly enjoy watching fellow contestants. Finally, I can truly appreciate all the feedback I get, even if some of the critique I get still hurts. Finally, I can heartily congratulate the both winners and the ones I like the best (and I’ll admit sometimes they are not the same, though this last time they were).

Finally, I learnt the meaning of friendly competition.

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2 Comments

  1. Azt hiszem ott voltam mindkettőn. Sajnálom, hogy azoknál, amiket sikerként értékelsz nem. De büszke vagyok rád és kicsit irigyellek, hogy át tudtad értékelni a verseny fogalmát.

    • Az elsőn biztosan nem, még nem ismertük egymást. A másodikon azt hiszem, ott voltál. És köszönöm.
      Olyan sokat olvasok arról, hogy “cs*szd el többször, de jobban”, és mindig ideges vagyok tőle, mert egyetértek azzal az örökbecsűvel, mely szerint a szívást nem kell gyakorolni. És persze, hogy nagyot csattan, amikor az ember olyan sok energiát beletesz valamibe, amiből nem lesz semmi. De mostanában sok fogalmat definiáltam újra, az se mindegy, hogy mit értékelek sikerként és hogy olyan viszonyba kerülök-e az ellenfelekkel, hogy örüljek az ő sikerüknek is. Ha az OKTV jó buli volt a kétszer integrált baglyaival, ez miért ne lehetne? 🙂

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